I don’t know why it is; yet again I find myself questioning my worth to my friends. One of them actually visited my hometown last night. Granted, I’ll get to see him when I go to the U.P. this weekend, but I can’t help but feel the slightest offense that I wasn’t invited to be involved in some way. I don’t think it was intentional, but then in my life, I’ve regularly been left out of gatherings I thought that I was going to be included. They’re symptoms of an larger problem I’ve always had, and I know I’m trying as hard as I can to fix things on my end. But still I see a reluctance from my peers to even attempt to recognize that sometimes what they do is hurtful whether intended or not.
At least I can say I’ve gotten over the cold from last Monday, as I sang four karaoke songs in full voice. Hopefully with all the roadgeeking going on in the U.P., we at least find one place up there that has karaoke during the weekend. At least I don’t have to worry about Chelsea given it’s an international break.